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every journey is different, but i can relate to the major strands here!

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Brave and bold. Loved the wee linguistics interlude too.

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Reading this was like going back in time! I can't believe next year will be my 10th anniversary of leaving Catholicism (and essentially Christianity) behind. "These days, my relationship with Mystery and its endless discoveries feel more certain than the theological truths I used to study or debate over." YES!!! You couldn't have put it better and I couldn't agree more. Thank you for sharing this, Minnow. You'd be surprised (or perhaps kinda un-surprised) at how many folks share a similar story in this country.

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Beautiful, Minnow. So glad you're sharing your process of sorting through it all with us.

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Such a beautiful piece, Minnow. I'm glad you ended up embracing the questions.

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“Let everything happen to you.

Beauty and terror.

Just keep going...

No feeling is final”

Rainer Maria Rilke

It can indeed be terrifying to question long-held beliefs. In my early recovery from drugs and alcohol I had to break down everything I had once believed about myself. It was a shattering experience. But I’ll never give up my new butterfly wings that form every season anew.

Thank you Minnow!

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Thank you, Minnow, for giving words to what I feel. I'm also sitting with the question and have been grappling with it. I admire your courage.

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Props to you for writing this and being open about it. It took me years of struggle to leave, and then many years after that to be willing to be open about it. When your entire community is based in the church, it's a hard thing to even question it, let alone blaze a new path.

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I like to think that religion is this system, world or construct that attempts to make God somewhat more comprehendible to the human mind. So in this sense, those set of practices, rituals and beliefs function in this manner - and that, at least to me, I can never fully 'understand' God and that's also beautiful. Thank you for making me think

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